Monday, April 2: Positivity puking.

Woke up feeling awful about horrible fight with Charlie.  Called to apologize and tell him I love him. Things still didn't feel right but I didn't know what to do about it.

Had a very good talk with Chris today.  He made a suggestion which I've been thinking about for a while - how about just try not drinking for a while and see how things go.  I felt bad enough on Monday that it sounded like a good idea.  Sure, I'll give it a go, just to see how things go without it.

Called Charlie to tell him about wonderful epiphany and life changing conversation with Chris. Charlie thought it was a great idea and decided he'd like to quit drinking for a while with me. Yay, the two of us will not drink together!  So much better than doing it all by yourself, right?  We lunched though I felt a bit under the weather and found it to be a bit of a trick to keep my food down.

Feeling very positive, hopeful and optimistic about new future.

Sunday, April 1: April Fool’s Day to be exact.

Was trying to do stuff around the house which was too awful without a beverage, so I drank the beer while I cleaned and fixed this and that.  Having all that time to clean and drink and think and drink and clean and fume and roll stuff over in my head and drink seems to have led to a bit of a tiff with Charlie.  By the time I saw him that evening I was positively fuming, though I managed to keep it under wraps for about an hour and a half before my cork popped and I let it out that I was a wee bit upset with things. It turned out to be a pretty bad fight.